Its been a while i know

Nothing exiting except work, work and work.
i wont bother you with my lame job :-P

but but but, i know what is exiting.
my colleague show me this video, which is i found amusing
wouldn't you?

Dexter anyone?

I got introduce to him by my bf, and i m 'in love' with him ever since.
a concept of serial killer with morals and codes that being taught by his foster dad whose worked as a cop. What a concept, isn't it?

The fact that u could hide yourself, your 'dark passenger' (*like dex always called him) with your surrounding, no clear line if he's bad guy or good guy, its just depend which perspective do you see him.
it's a serial worth watching, a twisted psycho with rules and have a family value.

This song was taken from 1st season (where his bro bryan 'refresh his mind about where he came from).

Born Free

Born free, as free as the wind blows 

As free as the grass grows 

Born free to follow your heart 

Live free, and beauty surrounds you 

The world still astounds you 

Each time you look at a star 

Stay free, where no walls divide you 

You're free as a roaring tide 

So there's no need to hide 

Born free, and life is worth living 

But only worth living 

Cause you're born free 

Home sweet home...

Last weekend i decided to go to my parents place.
this is the place where i grew up (ok now it s get bigger than it was)

My cousins have this small place sale some snack,coffee, instant noodles and sort of for the family who wait for their love one to give birth.  it was new but so far its went very well.

the other side is where my mom usually work from 7-12 am and from 3.30 - 6pm. She is retired but she have ambition to make this place big and presentable. Too bad non of her kids turn out to be a doctor (As she wish), maybe her grandchild will be, who knows?

Hm.. every time i go home i just remember my childhood.
it was great :-). I should thanks my parents for everything they have given me.
i m really lucky, i guess.

Wish i could make them happy, one day.

Oh oh Look ...



I love this sitcom cos barney so funny somehow and at last i can see who is 'the mother' that ted always talked about.
but if the mother blond why all the kids has brown hair?
must be dyed :-D :-P

When he see my face
There's not a thing that he would change
Cause i am amazing
Just the way i am :-D * grins 





* i probably will just go jump on him even when he's not finish singing :-P hehe
   tell me who wont fall for this? (this is not only for female department)

its almost 10.40 pm shown in the screen of my laptop.

dangdut musik is very loud from our neighbour's tape.
 It s dark here cos the light is off from the center, so half of jakarta has no electricity.
Energy is getting less and less within days, months, years... how sad.
its almost like in the year 1880 :-P maybe eventually candle will be in again

(or cempor - traditional
indo lighting)        ---------->

will be very bad for sake of my eyes, it  is already defect :-P 

Such a hectic end of the year, last minutes deadline that all need to handle, preparations of holiday, arranged everything so it will be goes smooth as its plan. 

cant wait to meet my boy again, it already been six months since i met him @my birthday in indo (yeah he went to indo to celebrate it with me - how sweet wasn't he? :-P - i must be really lucky) 

but 1st things 1st .... obligations then rewards....

SEMANGAT! 

ps. why i never heard this movie b4?it was 2 years ago...  

how can i miss such a 'cool' movie like this?

Corruption is everywhere.

There is a case that still HOT in indonesia, which is full of intrigue and like other case that wont be solve at the end  (aka century case,and so many others)..

for whom who don't know who he is just read on the link bellow, this case already been out since early this year.

start with this news:
http://www.thejakartaglobe.com/home/gayus-case-topples-indonesian-police-general/367117

and then this ;
http://www.thejakartapost.com/news/2010/11/20/more-political-intrigue-await-gayus039-case.html

and tons of other news if u search for 'gayus case'.

what a shame, this case is one of the indications (from many) that indonesian system can be brought.
i mean i m not into politics, i just knew that its always 'dirty work' to get power to rule the country.
but why? what's the point of doing all this? for money? (that will never be enough?)
for power ( that only last for few years?) for respect? (image of very honor family?)

how can people can be so blind?
why can't they just live this life and get it in 'clean' way  . . .
is it possible at least?

 i know i will never be rich with that kind of point of view
( to much empathy to the peoples will make me weak i guess)

Maybe thats also why indo has so many rich people that have properties in other country, bank account in swiss, or they could 'arranged' everything with their money, cos money does rule (after so many indications of unsolve case that has been goin on here)
but the other hand we' re also still the 3rd world country where we have LOTS of people (specially in jakarta) who lives in the box or under the bridge.

No good free educations for children, no good system for wages of workers(we have the rules for sure but its all different in the real life)  --> its also the reason why woman ( mostly) like to go to other country  like saudi arabia, malaysia, hong kong, etc to work as a maid, they think its hopeless to work here
(less money more work), sadly they didn't have enough knowledge and education to fight.

well its other issues that going on according to this matter (the fact that most woman being abused while they work there or unpaid).
Its like one problem caused other and will be never ending story until people on the top DO something and STOP talking. As if they have empathy for this people non of there will be happen.

hm heavy stuff to talk about @sunday huh?
oh my country when will you be out of trouble and we (as the citizens) could live happily ever after?
- in our dreamland maybe -

its saturday nite,

u know what i miss about innsbruck?
ok beside the fact that my bf lives there at the moment,
is that i can just hang out in the park and sleep enjoy the warm of the sun (in summer)

hmm i miss him a lot! :-(
usually i make him go to the park when i was there, cos to him its so lame to be alone in the park :-P
well thats why u bring a book rite (or a person that you love if u're lucky enough to have a bf who lives near by) ?:-D

Ahh friday!

Loveee it!

hmm i dont know what to write since i just got from work (ps. it shows 10.40pm in my laptop)
cant think anything but bed.

hey bed, i m coming ! ;-)

Eid Adha day...

"    Eid al-Adha (Arabic: عيد الأضحى‎ ‘Īdu l-’Aḍḥā) or "Festival of Sacrifice" or "Greater Eid" is an important religious holiday celebrated byMuslims worldwide to commemorate the willingness of Abraham (Ibrahim) to sacrifice his son Ishmael (Isma'il) as an act of obedience toGod, before God intervened to provide him with a ram to sacrifice instead.^[1] The meat is divided into three parts to be distributed to others. The family retains one third of the share, another third is given to relatives, friends and neighbors, and the other third is given to the poor & needy " 
(source wikipedia)


this year is not that special cos well, the fact it only one day off and it quite difficult to do some traveling. 
so i do what i usually on weekends, i went to my sis (its only like one hour from jakarta (without traffic) but u know jakarta its impossible not to be caught on traffic). Its always nice to see my nephew and niece, and the fact that its a family life (something that i always miss recently). 


This morning, i didn't have obligation to pray since i got my period so i still asleep until my niece to my room in the 2nd floor and wake me up and said 'breakfast aunty lia' ..
so i did..
we talk, me, my sis, her  husband, icha (my niece of 4yo- the one who woke me up), eat and talk again..
just like when we were in Bandung, ahh i miss that old days, worry nothing but good grades, never think about lack of money etc... youth is so good sometime..


i miss my mom, i called her, but she was in stress cos she has some difficulty on helping some woman in labour (yeah she' s a midwife, well a retired midwife with a very big ambitions - i never want to be a midwife, i dunno maybe cos i saw how my mom works, and the fact that i always miss her, even when she's around at that time) 
yeah she still got that skill and a hospital to think about


we ate homemade indonesian sate (which is a bit hard actually - still good tho) just before i went to go back to jakarta. it was yummy with a bit of hardness of the meat hehe :-P 


i went 1st to pelangi to buy some bottle water and some snack before i went to my rent room. 
while i get a ride home with cab, the driver talk about image and stuff that going on here, about how we treat people in general, i wont say all but most of them always think about social layers. 
u know u get more respect if u have a good tittle (even tho the earning is not that much), people tend look under to people who is less then them educationally, profession etc. instead of being humble they being snob.
 i dunno i think it sad, indonesia has so many culture to be proud of but in this matter, i definitely said it has to go. everybody, no matter what profession, we just have to appreciate it as long as it never hurt people.
don't u think? 


hm enough about that prejudice.
i wish i got more holiday (haha yeah i know i will want the opposite if i don't have a job :-P human!!!!!). 

Good Morning everybody on cyberworld! :-D 

where am i? ah yea, what i think about 'social network' the movie. 

<---- as seen on the left. 

i gotta tell this logo quite nice really, clean look almost like mac icons. cute. 

its nice.

despite all the talking and no typical hollywood actions movie, its pretty interesting movie even tho in my opinion 'inception' is A LOT more better. I know i know this social movie made based on true story and add some conflict to be more presentable.

inception is more to dreamy, techno, full of actions and cool 'the matrix moves'.

i m saying, its nice to watch it if u need some inspirations to study. Just like mark here, i like his card with sentence like ' i am  CEO, Bitch! so catchy and inspirational. 

and who wont fall to a smart ass nerdy? cos i will definitely do. ;-) 

( no thanks i m taken, with an european nerdy that so damn sweet -- > only fyi  even tho i know u don't give a damn :-P ) 

Hmm i should watch movie about inspiring artist and designer really... 

kinda lost my touch, anyone got an idea which movies i should watch? 

wow..

my last writing was feb 27 '09? it was so this year!:-P

so what's up with me? there was a lot of going on, i mean 2 part time job then change to accept job as full timer designer and changed direction to be Account Executive (in the same company) cos my boss said i got more skill in this, who knew actually? i do enjoying myself working out with people interact with me, communicating with them, share from work, info, life, professional, personal, anything...

i wrote, just in my journal. i think i have to be more careful to write in such a public blog since once u publish it there wont be any turning back.

i mean i wont said its important, i just like get out those thinking into writing and reread again and laugh thought how silly i was. its really fun to write, now i remember.

About job, i think i need something more challenging job, the one that include traveling and meet new peoples from the whole world, but i have no idea what my dream job is.

i do love to draw, again i m not quite productive recently, being dominated with bored and dark feelings. hmm i was thinking about me have this kind of bipolar disorder, i saw on the google

the descriptions of "bipolar disorder is apsychiatric diagnosis that describes a category of mood disorders defined by the presence of one or more episodes of abnormally elevated energy levels, cognition, and mood with or without one or more depressive episodes"

do u know what it means? no? hmm me neither :-P, to make it more simple i guess its more very extreme mood swing. which i had from time to time, i guess no, its not so danger, i mean so far all i hurt was just me.

ah yeah cant wait to eventually reach my gate away by the end of the year, it might only a few weeks but i know i will so enjoy it and will recharge me with more positive energy * crossed my finger *

i have actually have quite a lot of comment about movie i watched yesterday like social networks *basically story about mark zuckerberg ( the founder of facebook ) that being added with some hollywood twist.

interesting, i m sooo into nerd :-D they re just brilliant gosh....

but i will be back on that, will just enjoy my lazy sunday ;-)

ON FIRe....

last week was kinda bad, since it was my period and stuff ..

and i was complain to the wrong person. i know he s care for me but i that phase, i think what i need was hugs.

anyway here is some vector that i ve made, still need some detail touch tho.

i m kinda confused to gave background detail on those vector sometimes. Should find new alternative, "be creative lia.... be creative"

my friend told me about this PTC things (u know u click and u will get paid like 10 Dollar/click)

i dunno if its real cos i haven't achieved amount that i should achieved before i withdraw,but hey we will see if its true or not... so far i only achieve 60 clicks, i have like 940 clicks to go...Sigh... :-)

Miss the freedom ...

last nite after traveling around surfed for useful link of tutorials.start from great inspirational and tutorial site of Http://abduzeedo.com (which i have found what i need ;-D thanks for this great site) lead to fab pics of nikolas konstantin http://nikolaskonstantin.carbonmade.com/

And then come to this http://www.belocomotive.org/

i was like ... wow, that exactly what i wanted

i mean i've done with travelling so far.

no this extreem, like hitchiking, or sleepling outside the building with no money for foods (except if there's emergency - so that what i 've read).

But after i read this i was like.... gosh i its like a

perfect gate away for me,to taste the freedom again..

hm sadly i guess i'm a bit too old to do this kind of stuff .. i mean i'm 27 (about to be 28 this year). i 've done my travel, lived 3 years to 3 countries so far, and i also had to manage to learn the language, like German, english and norsk (i didn't count my mother language tho :-P) visiting more than 6 countries,

by the end of the year in one country (when i have extra budget) i went backpacking ..

well not like this guys do, but well let said a bit proper somehow cos i was alone. So there's some hotel booked, visiting friends (asking if i could spent the nite) and money for transport and foods. it was a bit lots of money spending since i'm from 3rd world country where 1Euro could worth one complete meal and drink.

so i had to be really careful on my spending.

But i can say that was the most amazing journey that i had, i mean i met a lot of cool peoples. Like this bruce who tend to be the coolest hairdresser in Wiesbaden,Germany http://brucezoller.com/,or the sweet, nice japan+italian couple who have italian school in Padova (i even met them again last year after 2 years), a Dutch whom i share nice laugh and wine in Berlin before i went to Amsterdam and a hongkong girl ( i kind of lost contact with her tho).

Gosh i m soo lucky to experience this, to see countries,learn the culture,languages and know the peoples.

*the Hongkong girl

* the BZ

I was also lived for 3 amazing host parents (i was an aupair for 3 years in 3 different country). They really showed me hospitality,good heart and took me as part of family.

* the Henelt-CHahhira family + Teti and me

There's some point when i thought it was useless, but after reconsidered i think i m wrong. There no such a things as useless in gain experience of life,to taste the freedom and lives it.

Time to struggling with word called 'stability'. where i come from, at my age everybody getting married, produce little humans that they called babies :-P.

No,thanks god my family didn't really gave HUGE pressure (only a little maybe) on settling down - in this case marriage-.

They think marriage will end the problems (u know, cos they know someone taking care of their daughter when their gone -i hate that fact that parents get old and wont never be with us again- which is sad.

last nite i also had a dream, that i jumped to this ocean so deep that muddy and difficult to swim nor breath but then i manage to go to the surface -i kept saying to myself in my dreams that i can do it- and go to my bf, and find him.

Dunno what that mean tho, but i guess it has t do with my struggle, i want to be a good artist and designer, it will be god damn hard.. but i will manage to go to the surface ...

Timeee oh time ...

Its passed by me so fast

i want it stop ticking, leave me in this beauty forever

of doubts

trapped on my realm of mind

without existences of living, just the sound of my breath , my blood flow, my heart beat

i love when the sunshine

it indicate when the days has start

hate when it start to leave me in the dark

i don't want to get old, to face the fact that its immortal

i haven't been in a place that i want yet

i want it to stop

torture me to the fact of reality

see the pain of living creature surround me

being fooled by words of hypocrite

pressure of being above their imaginary worlds

i already am in my imaginary world but not theirs

I HAVE......

No idea

hmm

Today i was just do following some tutorial on the net and downloading a font. Gosh its been a while since i in touch with my 'arty' side..

its like i got a blank paper to fill, but i ve no idea what

i will draw or make

Pretty depressing, or sometime i cant really visualize what i have in my mind, oh dear god

i m no longer in touch with inner self ... (what the hell am talking about? ahhh .. no idea)

* I made up the vintage radio text(the radio made based on tutorial9)

* 2nd version after i notice there some mistake on the writing of the 2nd text

ahh this is also what i made to cheer up my bf on his hectic time.

* seems depressing to look at than entertaining (since he s the victim here :-P)

well actually i dont know what i should make to fill the background, i was about to add some skethes and digital coloring but got no time (and idea on what to draw) so i just put his pics with some knife and cover with bloods hihihi (ok that seems like i suggest him to commit a suicide hihi, very wrong concept should have make the cross bolder tho :-P)

See this is what happen when i got no inspirations to write.

got new stuff to do tho and it must be more challenging and exiting since it has something to do with i want to do the most. I should stop to be a poser and go dive in to the ocean :-D

hm my baby is too busy to know that i m exist

he s got a huge stress around this and next week, exam, work etc.

wondering how is to be him, wont be here where i am for sure :-P

well nighty night cyberwold

and all the creature inside it