ON FIRe....

last week was kinda bad, since it was my period and stuff ..

and i was complain to the wrong person. i know he s care for me but i that phase, i think what i need was hugs.

anyway here is some vector that i ve made, still need some detail touch tho.

i m kinda confused to gave background detail on those vector sometimes. Should find new alternative, "be creative lia.... be creative"

my friend told me about this PTC things (u know u click and u will get paid like 10 Dollar/click)

i dunno if its real cos i haven't achieved amount that i should achieved before i withdraw,but hey we will see if its true or not... so far i only achieve 60 clicks, i have like 940 clicks to go...Sigh... :-)

Miss the freedom ...

last nite after traveling around surfed for useful link of tutorials.start from great inspirational and tutorial site of Http://abduzeedo.com (which i have found what i need ;-D thanks for this great site) lead to fab pics of nikolas konstantin http://nikolaskonstantin.carbonmade.com/

And then come to this http://www.belocomotive.org/

i was like ... wow, that exactly what i wanted

i mean i've done with travelling so far.

no this extreem, like hitchiking, or sleepling outside the building with no money for foods (except if there's emergency - so that what i 've read).

But after i read this i was like.... gosh i its like a

perfect gate away for me,to taste the freedom again..

hm sadly i guess i'm a bit too old to do this kind of stuff .. i mean i'm 27 (about to be 28 this year). i 've done my travel, lived 3 years to 3 countries so far, and i also had to manage to learn the language, like German, english and norsk (i didn't count my mother language tho :-P) visiting more than 6 countries,

by the end of the year in one country (when i have extra budget) i went backpacking ..

well not like this guys do, but well let said a bit proper somehow cos i was alone. So there's some hotel booked, visiting friends (asking if i could spent the nite) and money for transport and foods. it was a bit lots of money spending since i'm from 3rd world country where 1Euro could worth one complete meal and drink.

so i had to be really careful on my spending.

But i can say that was the most amazing journey that i had, i mean i met a lot of cool peoples. Like this bruce who tend to be the coolest hairdresser in Wiesbaden,Germany http://brucezoller.com/,or the sweet, nice japan+italian couple who have italian school in Padova (i even met them again last year after 2 years), a Dutch whom i share nice laugh and wine in Berlin before i went to Amsterdam and a hongkong girl ( i kind of lost contact with her tho).

Gosh i m soo lucky to experience this, to see countries,learn the culture,languages and know the peoples.

*the Hongkong girl

* the BZ

I was also lived for 3 amazing host parents (i was an aupair for 3 years in 3 different country). They really showed me hospitality,good heart and took me as part of family.

* the Henelt-CHahhira family + Teti and me

There's some point when i thought it was useless, but after reconsidered i think i m wrong. There no such a things as useless in gain experience of life,to taste the freedom and lives it.

Time to struggling with word called 'stability'. where i come from, at my age everybody getting married, produce little humans that they called babies :-P.

No,thanks god my family didn't really gave HUGE pressure (only a little maybe) on settling down - in this case marriage-.

They think marriage will end the problems (u know, cos they know someone taking care of their daughter when their gone -i hate that fact that parents get old and wont never be with us again- which is sad.

last nite i also had a dream, that i jumped to this ocean so deep that muddy and difficult to swim nor breath but then i manage to go to the surface -i kept saying to myself in my dreams that i can do it- and go to my bf, and find him.

Dunno what that mean tho, but i guess it has t do with my struggle, i want to be a good artist and designer, it will be god damn hard.. but i will manage to go to the surface ...